why why why???

You know life can be really unfair at times... i created this blog thinge just to pour out my feelings cos i seriously dont know how to make myself feel lighter... i just had to pour out my feelings... i dont have anyone to actualli share my probs with.. so.. ya... guessed this would be good to make me feel better... oh well... sometimes people just dont understand me... and i just dont know wad to do!!... my cousins dont even like me... they dont tell me anything.. i mean we used to be soooo close... and now we are poles apart.. when we meet... we dont even talk much.... at times we dont talk AT ALL!... am i that bad or wad man??... gosh!... they look down on me at times.. but wad the hack.. they can crap abt me all thry want...god is by my side... and he knows that i havent done anithing wrong.. for them to treat me like that... my lord is alwaes with me... and i know it!... i love u lord!!... another thing is that my mum is alwaes there for me... she listens to all my probs and helps me go thru them... but sometimes... its difficult to tell my mum certain things... but i still love my mummy loads.. oh well.. hm... now i realli feel beta... hate my cuz now.. realli...u know since my b dae i havent even spoken to them... imagine that.. and we are so called COUSINS????????.... oh stop kidding me!!1.... aiyoh...and just now went to my frens house.. she also was a bit aloof... i dont know wad i did!!... gosh man...so irritating.. cant u just tell me wad i have done wrong??... and ya... i have been deprived of sleep lately.. i am soo stressed about work.. havent got enough time to sleep... okie dokie... i seriously feel betta...so am gonna stop blogging.. damn sleepy.. wanna have a good rest todae.. wonder when i will have such a chnace ever again!!...haha...

To be there is difficult.. to remain there is even more difficult....
No one can make u feel down or inferior... unlesss you permit them to do so....